JUST STAY!!!

sometimes you just have to let go of the things you know are not for you...

things that became part of your life and will be just a part.

i don't want to believe that things change..but sometimes true things hurt

cause the only permanent in life is change.

and no matter how you want people to be part of your life permanently, they can't cause they have their own lives. And in one point of your life you will realize how different they are from you. 

Differences that you're trying to ignore yet its not enough,...

you want those people but they're not for you.

You loved those people but that's all you have, you can't have them.

I want to treasure them,..but they don't allow me to do.

they just forget me,..just like a boring movie.

is this how is it???

ALONE forever???

alone in this crazy unpredictable world!!!!!!!

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when suddenly it strikes you....

all i want now is to let go from his presence,..

from his shadow,..

...but whenever i see him,..

i just feel the same..

the old- super feeling.

yet i know my feeling will not change anything..

even him..

hUman with a humanoid hEart!

I am a human

cReature of God

living in the unpredictable world

breathing 

existing

in order to survive.

But now, I'm more like a humanoid...

moving

thinking

talking

yet, doing things is never a choice

instead a chance

my life is like a rock

hard and just flowing because of water.

 

the feeLing of missing you!!!

i never expect

nor to think

......

its a blast..

a reality that i can't 

escape nor hide

even to myself..

to anybody.

da time wen i saw ur name

on da screen..

of my worn- out celphone

on the computer appearing.

i felt excited..

i don't know why...

we talked..

we chat..

we text...

even you're too afar..

the thing is that i Miss you..
the moment when i laughed with u
we share thoughts
da time wen u said jokes
which made we laugh so hard no matter how corny it is..
and i'm looking forward to see you again one of this days...

maybe no matter how long may it take..

SUB- ROSA part 3

Isang guhit,
nagmula sa isang tuldok
hnggang sa isa pa.
Sinubukan kong
iguhit ka sa
hangin ngunit
ni-tuldok hindi
ko maaninag,
sorry...
kung sa kawalan
lamang kita
kayang iguhit,
at kung hawiin ka
man ng hangin
ay hindi ko mamamalayan.

SUB-ROSA part 1

Nabuo ka sa liko- likong

guhit ng kalungkutan.

Ninais kong baguhin,

ituwid,

ngunit naputol

at hindi ko na

magawang ibalik.

Tinangka kong burahin

ang guhit ngunit

tulad ng kandilang upos, wala.

hindi mabura na tila

marka na mananatiling

bakas, hindi ng nakaraan

o bukas kundi ng kasalukuyan.

Naisip ko sana

ginuhit na lamang

kita sa aking

mga palad,

baka sakaling  hindi na

kalungkutan

kundi kapalaran

ang magbubuo sa'yo sa akin.

Sa gayo'y mananatili ka

ng hawak ng mga kamay ko

at kailanma'y

hindi na kailangang

burahin at baguhin.