Prologue

I open my eyes..a dark shadow..so hazy...a picture of reflection ...a seconds its gone.

Consecutive nights, a dream that hunting me. There was a shadow that I can't visualized yet I felt it was real. It seems connected in my existence and made me into something that I want in my life. It even awaken my inner soul to a thing that seems missing for a very long time, like mystery that insufficient in half of my life. A dream that brought me to the world of illusion.

see chapter 1

"ASTRAL" a novel

As sweet and musical as bright Apollo's lute, strung with his hair,. And when Love speaks, the voice of all the gods makes heaven drowsy with the harmony.

William Shakespeare

"ASTRAL" a novel

"I was almost melted the way he looked at me...as i felt my heart whipping fast in bizaare manner. I knew we're both wounded but still breathing for our existence...Death never feared me as I feel his warmth that lingers in my vitality ,..it soothe me, complete me,,..and its all through behind the bruise ..with him I am intact".

The story of journey for love..to struggle and fight destiny.

LOve till its turning point between two different world.

something that i wish to have

he was a dream that i always wanted to be real..

but i guess,..we will remain like this..
hiding behind our shadows..
and now it is all over ,..
its just numb that nestled,..
everything was now in reality,.

mOve oN???silence is grieving

how hard is it to let go of someone you used to be with?
someone who makes you happy, sad and even mad..
someone who shares life and dreams with you..
someone who makes you smile, laugh and cry..
and the pain lingers as you think your not that someone
who belongs to him...its someone else..
and nothing you can do but just to deal with it..bitterly..

what's hard about moving on?
its when you wake- up..
he was the first person who comes on your mind..
then you realize he was gone in your life..
FOREVER..


teardrops falling and unstoppable..
you thought its okey,but its not..
silence is grieving..

today is a day

uhm,...

wHat a sUnny Day...

The mystery of Nature

The mystery of Nature

"Suds wiThin Mask"

Smiling...Laughing...without a heart
Projecting oneself into another
talking without words like a lyrics without chords
hiding in own shadow, real is what afraid to face
make believe that what to see is to believe
Prevarication is a damn clandestine of isolated soul
a false face unveiling the mask...
There's a suds within Mask.

pray is a way to God

self cRisis ....

It is real that life will be beautiful if we stand with God . .


well, life is not that easy the way we want to imagine ..


the way i want it to be ..


yet it is our role to live ..and survive. ..

even how much hard it is ...

and even times we'v hurt . ..


i don't know ..


for now i don't know what i want ..


there's no clear within my vision . .yet i tried to see bec i don't want God to be dissappointed . .

for everything i do . .he is my guide . .


my peace of mind . .



i'm so sorry for my friends . .


i know they can't understand me . .the way i can't understand myself . .


i'm sorry if i hurt them without my knowledge of doing so . .


maybe. ..i just need space . . .to comprehend what i really feel . .


what's wrong???


what,s right ???


my life . .asking God . .



for my happiness . .



and contentment . .