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I was supposed to sleep but i can't, honestly i was thinking a lot of things eventually those stuffs that i can't even imagine to myself that my mind could reached. Oh! maybe you're curious about it, how bold and dark my mind is (trying to be sound  funny)..anyway, i can share a little bit of it but not entirely.

Let me begin with this:

• so silly, I was imagining Ichigo Kurosaki (anime Bleach) is real.  I am really....really a big fan of him (i supposed you knew him). He was so cute and not just that, I really like hos character, a man of  few words, so tough yet so sweet inside and a knight and shining armor. I know he is just a fantasy but he makes me happy, that's how ridiculous i am and erratic my imagination is.
• what about my novel 'ASTRAL', i was bothered about the chapter 3 which happened i didn't started it yet apparently now i was in chapter 7 ( i skip it ). Aside from that i was thinking if i will continue to write it down here, i'm kinda shy to show it to everyone(lol), for the fact that i'm not really a writer. It's a product of my imagination and being HR (but i can say to myself that writing is my passion and i love to do it.).

Let me be to more serious entity...

toot..toot..blah...blah..blah..

• now, i asked myself about life, sounds melodramatic (kath and ehdrin always say i am so "emo", while my girlfriends say  "it's okey girl, that's natural). Anyway, my thoughts were deepening as if extracting every neurons of my brain.
• somewhat i relate life in three concepts of human existence......

Naturally....which means realism of life and GOD as the center of everything.

Scientifically....this embodied life with the knowledge of laws and principles toward the general truth. 

Serendipity....here comes the unexpected, surprises and chances of life. 

well, i think i always balance my life...I am a God- servant, a scientific person and an idealist. What more you can ask for????ha ha :)

Still i'm not Perfect